f0rk!:: the dumb become dumber

Yesterday on the bus on the way to school, I was listening to my music, and all of a sudden for no reason I get depressed. I was brooding for about a half hour straight thinking angry thoughts about how much my life sucks, for no reason at all. I thought about everything: girls, social life, suicide...I also thought about how I don't have a job or my license and half my friends do. I feel like such a slacker and such a low life loser. I got even deeper than that. I thought who is more courageous, the man who has the courage to take his own life, or the man who fights on. I thought why should I be allowed to commit suicide and have my family suffer. I also thought on the other side, why should I have to suffer from depression when people around me live great lives and have so much to live for. I brooded with these sorts of thoughts all the way to school, then when I got to school I was still depressed. I talked to my Homeroom teacher for awhile, and I told her I just knew I was going to have a bad day. She asked if I needed to talk to my therapist and I said "What's my therapist gonna do for me?" It's true though, because when I finally got so depressed that I did go to my therapist, and I told her what was bothering me, she just belittled it, and said "Your life sucks? How about we go on a field trip to a burn victims unit. Then we can go to the amputee unit, and then to the radiology unit to see the cancer victims. Then you can tell them how much your life sucks." I told her to fuck off and from there it just went downhill. Life sure is a bitch sometimes. If you have any feedback please feel free to leave it.

Hey to all my loyal fans, greetings from Frederick, Maryland. Today my CounterStrike game arrived for Xbox. Yeah, it's pretty good. It could be better, for example, it needs more game types but otherwise it's a groovy game. I play it on Xbox Live so if you see someone on there whose gamertag is SlothfulObject that would be either me or my brother. Soooo, drop me a line on my screenname, p4eQ, for aol instant messenger to set up a game. I love this game, I recommend it to anyone with an Xbox Live connection. If you don't have Xbox Live dont get it, cause it's meant to be played for Xbox Live. Or, get Xbox Live, and then get it!

Anyway, I'm gonna go play CounterStrike now, peace everyone!

Today my pool stick got here! w00t! It's sooo sweet and rad and groovy and everything else on the positive side of karma that it could possibly be. Today in school I didn't do anything real major, just some research for a Horticultural Research Project. I'm researching possible side effects of an energy drink from the SoBe product line. Hopefully, if I can convince my principal, school doctor, both my horticulture teachers, and a handful of staff at school that the product is O.K. then I can administer the real test, to see if SoBe actually increases memory, alertness, concentration, and other positives. Right now I'm looking around at the Food and Drug Administration's website trying to find documentation that proves that the product is safe. Anyway, it's turning out to be fun, and I'm "pretty stoked", as Dubya would say. F@#$ Dubya in the ear though, he's a dipshit. He sure does represent our country though. The whole country is full of dipshits like him: Michael Jackson, Kobe Bryant, Britney Spears, the Whole Fox Network, Carson Daly, you get the point. I've angered myself. Time to go calm down.

Hey all. It's been awhile since I've posted here. New Years was good, I went over to my cousins' house on the Eastern Shore of Maryland. We stayed up till about 3:40 in the morning, had a breakfast at about 2:00 AM and left the next day at around 1:00 PM. My parents, my aunt and uncle's friends and my Grandma all went to the Country Club to party. Sadly, I didn't do any partying. I wish me and my friends could have had a New Years Eve Party but I know my parents would never go for that. Moving on.

My pool stick's estimated date of arrival is January 6th. I'm counting down the days. I dunno when my family's pool table is supposed to arrive. I can't wait to test out my pool cue, and it hasn't even arrived yet!

For Christmas, I got some nice gifts that I liked a lot.
My sister got me: Beatles Tee Shirt
My Brother got me: A miniature Zen Garden
Uncle and Aunt got me: Fantasy Novel
Parents got me: 2 Sweaters, 1 Fleece Zip Down Sweater thingie, A guide to Billiards, Snooker and Pool, and of course the family present, a 8' Pool Table!

Christmas rocked, and in March, my birthday is coming up. My Dad racked up some free hotel nights and Sky Miles, so also in March, we're flying out to the fabulous Lake Tahoe on the California-Nevada border for 3 nights and 2 full days of skiing on one of the largest ski resorts west of the Rockies. w00t!

Hey all. Last night I got back from Pittsburgh after a long car ride. I slept most of the way back. It's a dull story, so let's move on to the next item. I shot pool with my old man last night at the Braddock Heights Inn and Sports Bar. He beat me two games to one. That usually doesn't happen, haha. I think I'm going to get a pool cue with my Christmas money. We're getting a pool table for Christmas so I'll get plenty of use out of it. If you wanna see the one I'm getting, its the D-21TR model at this website: http://www.michaeljscues.com/players_classic_cues.htm . I like it, and I think it will prove to be a good investment. Well, I'm gonna go now. Ciao.

Hey, I found proof that Santa does exist. For all you nonbelievers, just go to www.noradsanta.org . NORAD is short for North American Air Defense and they are in charge of maintaining control over North America's Air Space. They are run by the U.S. Military as well as the Royal Canadian Airforce. For more information about NORAD, check out www.norad.mil .

Today I went to Jamie Duncan's office and hung out there for a while. I did some of my homework and played some video games. Then, we went out to grab a bite to eat. We were going to go to Chipotle's Mexican Grill but they were closed, due to some holiday party. It's too bad I'm not some celebrity, I could've gotten us in. His daughter was there, shes about 7 years old and she's so energetic. She wouldn't stop laughing the whole night. It was fun and we ended up going to Panda Express for Chinese. I just now got home, and signed on to chat. Tomorrow's Christmas Eve and my cousins are coming over. It should be fun, if everything goes according to plan. But, I've been known to F@#$ things up every once in a while *ahem* Thanksgiving *cough*. Well, the day after that is Christmas and I'll be traveling to Pittsburgh. Hopefully I'll be able to get on and update my blog as well as chat with my friends, but you can plan on the laptop being needed by my sister, brother, Mom, and Dad. I have 27 pages due by Jan. 16. I had to read a book (John Steinbeck's 'Cannery Row') and write a one page summary of each chapter as I read it. I was goofing off in resource (detention) and now I'm waaay behind. I'll be staying busy over the Holidays, count on it.